December- first step

What r u doing nowdays? How do u spend ur day? Have u started looking for work? These are questions that frndz and ppl I ve known keep asking me. And my answer remains the same-no job and no work, all I do the entire day household stuff. The routine is pretty set up with a few alterations here and there and thus the day passes by. I attribute my laziness to be a factor for the current state. Ofcourse there are days when I get annoyed at my lack of constructive activity, but then on many an occasions these thoughts are conveniently pushed aside. I m amazed that I have so patiently been able to sit at home with my life revolving around the new additions to family and the kitchen (sounds pathetic doesn’t it!). Today I took the first step, I approached the first link I have in the city and lets see where this leads me.

Smoking….

I wonder whts the reaction when u read tht name….for those who r kool with my occasional fags- I wanna thnk u….but I am more interested in the small section of my frnds who r not….and don’t worry this isn’t a way at getting back at u (coz it ll come right back in the form of a comment J) , I am writing this as a confession- I knw my occasional smoking doesn’t endear me to some of my frnds, infact quite the opposite, but let me say this again- addiction scares me!! Being out of control, loosing sense of whats right and wrong and in the process hurting self and those dear around is not what I want for myself. For me its an occasional thing that I indulge in coz I enjoy it…and trust me I do take safeguards to not go down the unwanted path. I wanna say, thank u for accepting me as I am and not trying to change me (other than the rare comment on it) and even offering to let me smoke around u..tht for me meant a lotttttttt…